Holy Anxiety Batman

Today, I received news that I had officially been accepted into Liberty University's Masters of Divinity in Biblical Studies program.

I am a graduate student.

Holy Anxiety Batman.

I should be excited. I should be ready to begin.

But I'm not.

Well, I am. Kind of.

I am so nervous. Do you know how much a masters degree costs these days? Do you know how much work it takes to complete a masters degree? Or how much reading I am going to do? And I am doing it online which is way different than being in the classroom. Did I mention I have to learn not one, but two incredibly difficult languages? I mean, have you tried learning Greek? How about Hebrew... Yeah, me neither.

Can I do this? Am I going to flunk? Why am I putting my husband and future family in so much debt?

Ok. I should've warned you when you first clicked on this how much complaining I was going to do.

But folks, I am freaking out.

I know this is where God wants me. I know this is a stop on my journey. I am just so nervous.

"The Lord gives strength to His people; the Lord blesses His people with peace." Psalm 29:11

Apples

I went to the grocery store tonight and bought apples.
Do you know how many different kinds of apples there are?

Golden Delicious.
Red Delicious.
Fuji.
Granny Smith.
Jonigold.
Honey Crisp.

Shall I continue?

This is a bit out of control.
And then I came home tonight and saw this picture.

Some friends of ours are missionaries in Uganda. This is one of the elderly ladies that they were able to bless with blankets, reading glasses, and food.

What does this have to do with apples?

I am getting there... Promise.

The food they were given beans, rice, sugar, salt, and posho (a dish made of just cornmeal and water which is widely eaten in Uganda because it is so cheap).

They don't have a billion apples to choose from, or several rows of different kinds of meats. They don't have a line of cereal to pick from or a drink section longer than my whole apartment.

Is it bad we have those things? Of course not. I like those things. I buy those things. But it was a good reminder how gosh darn lucky I am. Its the little things that sometimes make me stop dead in my tracks and throw my heart and mind back onto the African continent with a good dose of gratefulness as I go.

I miss that place so much... So so very much. But I am eternally thankful for the little - and big - lessons it taught me and reminds me of today.    

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I got a little crafty today.. I have hundreds of pins on Pinterest and I rarely get any time (or money... code for broke college student). I finally had some time today to throw a little something together. Its not Martha Stewart quality, but I thought I would share anyways...

I bought the frame from Goodwill for $2 and I got the "D" on sale at JoAnn's today. The paint I had. I spray painted the frame black and the D, I had some acrylic in my favorite color. I cut the string off the back and then I sandpapered the D and the frame, just so it wasn't in your face shiny and gave a little vintage feel...

I hung it up on the living room wall above the TV. The wall needs something else, maybe some pictures or something, but for now, this is good. 

Yes, that is One Tree Hill on my TV. Don't judge me.

What do you think?