Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Not Just Yet

I cannot believe how many people are pregnant or popping out babies.
So stinking many.

My sister is among those who are pregnant, and believe me, I am BEYOND excited. I adore my niece, Reagan, and I know that a second one is going to be even more love and fun.

As soon as my sister announced that she was having another baby, I got lots of Facebook comments, messages, instagram comments, etc. about when I was going to have some cousins for her and when was I going to have one now that Laura is on #2. I know all the comments are said with good intentions, and I am not offended at all, so hear me when I say all this; I appreciate the comments, but there is a lot that goes into the decision of having kids and its something on my mind constantly.

When Daimian & I got married, we set a 5-year timeline of being together before we would have kids. In November, it will be 5 years. Our next goal was for me to have my degree. Originally, that was a bachelors, but when I changed my mind about my career, that turned into a masters degree, which I now have. Then, a new goal emerged, one that I had not anticipated, and that was my weight loss.

I have written before about my frustration with the fact that although I no longer make all the terrible choices I did previously, I still have to pay the consequences for it now. And one of those consequences is that I don't get to start trying for babies until I feel that my weight is in a place where I am ok with getting pregnant. It may sound silly to some, but it is what I feel is right for me.

My weight and pregnancy concerns me... I worry about a higher risk of miscarriage, gestational diabetes, preeclampsia, excessive weight gain during maternity, etc. It freaks me out so badly, and yet at the same time, I desire for kids.

So to answer the many comments and questions (which I am still not offended by), there are some things that need to happen before babies happen. My sister is on her second baby before her third wedding anniversary, and I don't have one and I am going on 4.5 years married, but honestly, there is no right or wrong answer. This just works for D & I.

So keep popping out babies and getting pregnant, because I LOVE seeing pictures and checking out announcements. And I will let you know when Baby Dunn is on the way.