Money

Money sucks. If you don't have it, it makes things way more difficult than they should be. If you do, than you can easily become prideful and materialistic. Always? No. But possible.

I wish I had money. I am in the category of no money. I could've said I am a college student and you probably would've figured it out for yourself. I don't call myself poor. Compared to 85% of the world, I am not poor. I am very rich. Just a personal pet peeve of mine. I won't get on my soap box.

But think about all the things money can do. If I was a millionaire, there is a gigantic list of people I want to help, places I want to go, things I want to do. As I have grown up and understood the importance of money in that it runs our world, my priorities have changed.

I remember in high school, I was working at a pizza place in my hometown. A co-worker and I got into a discussion about what we would do if we won the lottery. I remember my answers had something to do with a nice car (maybe even 3), a big house, traveling to Venice, Paris, Sydney, London, Tokyo, etc. Clothes came up in the conversation. Jewelry. Sporting events, and even buying the Portland Trail Blazers. Now, I would still love to travel to those places, and I still might even consider purchasing the Blazers, but first, there are other things I would do. I feel like if we had this conversation now, my answers would be very, very different.

What is jewelry if children in Africa are dying of malaria? What is a nice car if people in Arab nations are being killed for converting to Christianity? What is yet another nice car if foster children in America are abused and hungry? What is a big house if children in Cambodia live on the street? What does anything matter if people are losing mothers, brothers, sisters to all kinds of cancers we have no cure for?

If I won the lottery, there would be so much I could do to help them. No, I could not fix everything. I wish I could. I so wish I could. But I know it would make the money so much more valuable if it went to someone other than myself and my materialistic shallowness.

I wish I had money... Simply so I could make a difference in this world. I guess I will have to figure out how to without it.