Change

I don't do well with change.
I am finding I am not alone in this struggle. 
I have also learned how much of a control freak I am. 
I like things planned, organized, and understood.
I like them my way.

That's just how I am.

But it becomes exhausting.
Because this life is so unpredictable.
The unexpected is to be expected.
And that goes against every fiber of my being.

There are so many Scriptures about trusting God. 
Psalm 33:4 says, "For the Word of the Lord holds true, and we can trust everything He does."

So, then, why is it so darn hard for me?
Why can't I just accept that I am not in control and He is?

Incidents like 9/11, Hurricane Sandy, and the Sandy Hook shootings just add to my feelings of being out of control and helpless. 

Someone tell me they understand. Someone tell me I am not crazy. Someone tell me they fear and struggle like I fear and struggle. 

Someone tell me I am not alone in this.