I Guess This Happens A Lot

In high school, I never really was set on what I wanted to do.
I thought about elementary teacher, counselor, nurse, athletic trainer...
I just never could decide.

Once I graduated, I went to Chemeketa and played around. Classes were not a priority. And so I failed a few and had no motivation because I didn't even know what I was going for.

Then I felt a pull towards Salem Bible College (now Northwest University, Salem Campus). I have spent the last 4 years here.

I met my husband here.
I met myself here.
I met my God here.

And in the process, I thought I had met my career. I wanted to teach Bible College students. I was going to go on and get my masters and then my doctorate. And I wanted to go back to the college I had graduated from and teach.

So this last term I helped teach a freshman level class. I lectured, did grades, gave tests. I enjoyed it.

But I didn't LOVE it.

Its not that I don't love my school, or my professors, or my fellow students. I just realized that teaching didn't give me as much joy as I had maybe thought it would.

Then I started coaching at my old high school.
And I cannot express the kind of joy that it brings me.
I love it.
And I love my girls.

So I decided something. Since I can't make a living coaching high school girls basketball, I want to find something that I can do along with coaching that will bring me that much satisfaction. And teaching isn't it.

So here I am, 5 years into school, about to graduate in May with my Bachelors in Christian Leadership and I am looking at other Bachelors degree. Another 3 or 4 years of school? And what in the world would I even go for?

I have friends who have done the same thing. But I feel like I wasted time. I feel like I should've known sooner. I guess I can't look at it that way. I guess this happens a lot.